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I remember one incident from purana. Disrobing of Draupadi in public. It is direct description of miracle. She could not be disrobed. After my brother's death. Many emails poured on among them some of them from my classmates. Sastry wrote to me observing that he must have been extremely smart to deserve this amount praise in ISI. I am blessed with two elder brothers both were innocents. When I came to ISI i was living in my brother's room. One evening when all were present, one Chari asked, who is younger? Had they seen us all three together, it is impossible to tell our order. Innocence. Often Ittadi who saw a photograph of my brother Gopal often asks about his feature sharpness. My reply is he was a born saint full of love. Both Kamal and Gopal had unforgettable smiles. Kamal's was of non attachment. Gopal's was of love and respect. I had one other sister whom I never saw. She died innocent. On my mothers death all of got together except deads. Our ISI acquain...

Paradise is lighted by darkness. Paradise is warmed by coolness. Paradise has no cloud. its sky is forever open and clear, its breeze is pervasive love. it rains love showers many times a day even when it is not required. Paradise shelter. its roof is open clear sky that changes color creates mood forever fresh and new. Paradise is now. old is not now. expected is not now. there is no past no future. Now is bliss always. knowledge is absent. memories is absent. Paradise is love. love is always fragrant beautiful pleasing fulfilling nourishment fresh and new. Paradise is living. Paradise is absolute. Paradise is source substance unconditionally_free perpetual dreamless wordless supreme pure living. Live in paradise i still have my body mind senses intellect money relations feelings biases loves conclusions - but for what use? [written for those who are fond of words]

The yoga that is known all over the world often nothing but some simple postures to be kept for 30 seconds to one minute. People claim all kinds good results from them. I do not know. I have tried some of them sometimes. Fascination drops off soon from my mind. I am not disciplined. I have no fixed time to go to bed or wake up.  However writing is part and parcel of my daily life. I often spend several hours in a day looking at me and documenting the same. I go for cycling once a day when weather is good. While I am on the wheels, I play with many ideas. I get plenty of relaxation from my writings.  I get superlative experience of living in paradise without any compulsion. I am able to pay my bills and taxes even though I am partially employed. While none in my house spend any money towards my expenses, they are not al all less demanding. My wife could at least bear huge expense towards her medical insurance medicines tests and doctors. She does not. Despite my conti...

The meaning of this word I do not know. I do not look up dictionary for meaning of words. I am not insulted for my lack of knowledge. I know how to digest my ignorance. I read books passages never looking up dictionary for words' meaning I do not know. My learning knows no depth. I have no inclination to be scholar nor intelligent or successful. http://www.foxnews.com/opinion/2018/08/27/liz-peek-mr-trump-make-magnanimous-gesture-and-award-mccain-medal-honor.html I have been aware of McCain for last 18 years I am here in USA. I am political novice. I am in no way looking to be expert. I voted for Trump. I did not know his dishonesty cannot be fathomed, his level of selfishness can only be seen in USA and nowhere else in the world. The only lasting impression I formed of McCain, is his principles of unselfishness and his non-conforming nature. He stood alone by his principle. No other person in US history of politics merit this credit from me. Is it the meaning of maverick a...

Time was perhaps discovered many thousands years ago simultaneously when we learned counting. Euclid geometry, relation between  radius perimeter and area sundial, radius of earth, distances between sun moon earth are attributed to Greeks 300 years BC. Derivations are simple using plane geometry, trigonometry, .... Simultaneously we knew before and after. We could predict events - seasons eclipse and what not. We needed logic observation counting angle distance and hypothesis. Light speed in any media is constant. Energy mass light gravity are related and what not. No wonder with 7 billion intellects available in our possession - we only have theories everyday and being fed by Google. No matter what is the prediction i am fossil in paradise. I cannot change or be affected. I am both current before and after time. I am not captive captured ... I am all and always .... a just born baby knows all .. so do i

In the paradise. I, of course, need not say do or think. They do not happen. In paradise there is no poster in any language. In fact posters are playful paintings. Sounds are songs and music. Love is pervasive every where. What can I do now? I am the first living human after Yudhisthira. I have some actions still left. In the paradise all is all knowing. Plants know all. Insects know all. Animal know all. Knowing all is permanent in paradise everywhere. I alone do not know. One cannot teach. Before I open my mouth to speak I am heard. I can only make music painting stories for nobody else but me. whatever i do or not do it is universal knowledge.  there is nothing unknown or insufficient ~ simply is elastic as per demand. the choice is to be infinite ~ there is no big and small ~ all is all always. Paradise is unlimited without a choice. One other detail I wish all to know if one is curious about nature of paradise or one is making a film on paradise ~ nothing eve...

This dialog I heard again in a film. I remember love. Once I bought a book of poem by Hafiz and gave it to ... I read some but I did not enjoy that much but I like stories of Hafiz. He was fetched by Taimur Lung, the lame butcher since he felt his soldiers were reading Hafiz. Soldiers are supposed to fight and not waste time with love and wine. Here is the story: Timur and Hafiz The Sufi poet Hafiz of Shiraz wrote the famous poem:  ‘If that Shirazi Turkish maid would take my heart into her hand:  I’d give her Bokhara for the mole upon her cheek – or Samarkand.’  The conqueror Tamerlane had Hafiz brought before him and said: ‘How can you give away Bukhara and Samarkand for a woman? Besides, they are in my own domains, and I shall not permit anyone to pretend that they are not!’  Hafiz said to him: ‘Your meanness may have given you power. My generosity has put me in your power. Your meanness is obviously more effective than my prodigality.’  Tamerl...

I renounce all the people and their memory - not a single muscle may move not a single word gesture sound may escape not a single thought may be thought - no matter who are them I have to accomplish impossible even if impossible for my independence No communication with people anywhere anytime any reason - no matter how lonely I am - no matter what I feel - no matter what is my loss People are innumerable knots on single thread me over my lifetime. Knots are obligations rules promises. I do not have to untie them. I simply cannot live with them now at least and as long as I live. If I cannot keep promises or obligation and rules I have to pay the price. I cut all knots at the root of my thread - me. I am ready to pay the price no matter what. I am not going to break my silence. I accomplish this unilaterally in my end. I throw away all my telecommunication devices blogs social network email pen paper phone contacts relations memberships whatever ties .... now and forever ...

I do not study law of any land including USA. I am protected by laws of paradise. However I keep hearing about impeachment. In the past USA has seen no impeachment. I am told it is politics only and not in the realm of law or court. President of USA is above law but in the realms of Senate and House. As long as GOP in house and senate is supporting and as long as Trump supporters are making noise and that been boosters for GOP in Senate and House. Trump is untouchable no matter what. Trump's irritation with DOJ is understandable. In his perception he alone can feel and none else. Sessions is back stabbing him by recusing himself from Trump probe. His deputy who is conducting the probe is supportive of probe. All this when he is Absolute. Trump uptill now is not taking control of DOJ by firing both. He is diffident. He is afraid of tripping the balance in Senate and House. All GOP may not be supporting and may turn neutral. Self interest - money and business beyond Presidency...

Automation is before first. Before time. Before universe. Before words. Before True. Before False. Before Money....  Automation belonged to none. Automation is automatic part and parcel of Paradise. Automation is beyond law or legislation. Automation pervades all human world. Automation is universal. Gift from Paradise. Automation is Automated Path to Paradise. All motion is automatic. Motion exists because of automation. Automation cannot be stopped. Paradise is persistent. Automation is the Cause. After Always. Truth is Always. Automation is visible part. Truth is invisible indivisible whole. Automation is in every microbe. Automation is in every Atom. Automotion is in heaven in the sky. None and nothing is without automation. Automation is not invention. Every moment is result and gift from automation. Intellect is differentiator based on knowledge. Knowledge is man made - blinding deafening noise. Truth alone is its controller. Truth is sanity or ...

I am a fossil of Paradise. Inextricable even for a fraction of moment. It is impossible. It was very early in my life I heard the story of Yudhisthira who was untouchable by earth and earthling. He walked four fingers above earth surface. He alone made to paradise. He took very very long time to reach paradise. When he reached there, he found everyone else made to paradise long before him. I have discussed days after days with my mother all the stories of Puranas, whenever I visited her. My mother later tried to procure some explanation and understanding in print form. They were very childish attempts. My brother kamal never participated in the discussion but did not give any merit to my exposition. Key to understand purana stories is the names of characters. They describe the very intrinsic characteristics of a person at the birth. One could explain all the puranas from the theory stated in Upanishads. There were two other persons who were interested in listening to me. My brothe...

Among all the thrillers i read. I enjoyed Rex Stout. After years I intended read him again. About a year back i got about 4 dvd from netflix. I saw four more from library. And 6 books. I also lot of old classics movies from library.

I am poor in language. I usually stick to less than 500 words all languages together. I am more concerned about what I wish to communicate to me. I have divided existence. Me the creator of all. Me the resident of the world. Recently I have renounced my affinity to my creator. I am determined to do without his help. Along with the help system he has created. I have taken too much of the world. Now I wish to do without world. The one and only way do without it, is abandoned the use of languages and words and my repertoire of knowledge. Knowledge may be there and partially eroded or forgotten. If so I don't need to remember. If not so I don't use knowledge. We already have a well documented session of Questions and Answers on renunciation ~ Gita. Well read and well quoted. But never practiced. The list is infinite variety of attachments. Luxury Talks Writings Readings Food Drinks Comforts Habits Activities Health Wealth Meditation Sex Style Fashion Philosophy Honor Fut...

I still write and doing so about 12 years now. It is called yug in Sanskrit. Long ago about 5000 years now discovered a language that is already been transformed into change proof yet living. It is the vehicle of choice if you wish to continue it's life to the end of time. Further it is stories written in it is told to people. As per convention and practice of time the story lives in the population and remains relevant and part of their daily living. I already noted i benefitted from this method of desemination of knowledge otherwise it would have been very difficult. But why I write on daily basis even now. What purpose i have in mind? Yesterday I was again been asked why do not consider publishing. I told them it is very personal. What is personal about it when it is available in public? However I am completing a purpose. It is first person account ever. It is not Sruti (heard) nor Smriti (memory or recitation). It is practice documenting the very journey and living in parad...

I have exhausted my quota of prayers. My last prayer was for well being of Cecilia. I have now empty set of action and do without any action even when I am dying. I have no more wish not even a last prayer to offer. As a precondition of my last payer I have emptied all - current and future assets including allowable quantity of prayers in my unlimited life time in my world.  Having done my last i have no wish left even when i discover someone planning to elimu naye or harm me. I let that happen. My creator every right to eliminate me in any manner of his choices. I am prepared. Poison pain suffering liberty hunger .... All is bliss and blessings  in paradise.

as a child I was very fond of reading biographies. before i could read i was fond of stories of children and characters from puranas sitting on my mother's lap looking at night sky of stars. I had blessed childhood no wonder i would like to return to the same and remain there. My hero worship and dream as a being wee different then from now. i measured myself as 1 in scale of 1 to 10 and 1 being the lowest and 10 being highest.  I gave 10 to Yudhisthira, Arjuna 3, Karna 7, Rama 9, Laksmana 5, Bali 10 etc. Krishna i did not like and did not measure. When I started reading biographies - I gave 10 to Edison, Newton 7, Kepler 8, Einstein 3, Bell 5 etc. As a young man when I was addicted to writers and their writings I started grading holimen - i gave Valmiki 10, Vyasa 10, Shankara 9, Ramakrishna 6, Zorba 10, Vivekananda 3,  Theauro 5, Osho 4 etc. Then I met a living real without name ~ Him I gave Number 10. I spent time with him and looking him over for 4 hours. I listene...

I talked about my description as per any set of description. And there exist none. I am not human. I am not animal. I am not organism. I am not living. I am not earthling. I do not have coordinate. I have no point of reference. I do not have description. I have no requirement. I have no garb. I have no existence. I have no foot print.... I have no memory. I have no status. I have nothing....I have no relation. I have no mind. I have no body. I have no sense. I have no intelligence.... I have no me. I ward robe is empty. I have no shelter. I have no asset. I am not ghost. I am not creator. I have no life. I am absent. I do not know. I know I do not know.  It is true that I do not know and I must be silent and inactive no matter what.   My dress code for all time is Innocent  Silent Inactive Absent Trusting unexpecting and brimming with love.

am i worried about paradise being lost? I looked into logic and its ability to make statements about axiomatic systems - completeness incompleteness semantic syntactic consistency  inconsistency and rules of deduction. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/G%C3%B6del%27s_incompleteness_theorems Logic i do not very much subscribe to beyond set theory or mathematics. Logic was formalized about 75 years back by whitehead and russell. It was required to make mathematics paradox free. My objective is simple. If I am in paradise somehow. I wish that to be independent of language number systems Logic ... No matter what.   non-axiomatic! I wish to eliminate all cause of unhappiness in my paradise. 100% adults are definitely not in paradise though they may be many times billionaires. Problems arise from numbers and counting (time events or worth). Anyone who counts to measure self happiness is worried about unhappiness from present past or future due to calculation itself. ...

In the morning I got up little late because none interrupted my sleep. I brushed my teeth early morning. I took bath at 10. I wished to find why all is quiet. All three were there. Cecilia was busy making ice cream with clays. I knew how to achieve without ruffling a single hair. I spent couple of hours or more with the children in my fenced playground. I was trying to differentiate between species in planet earth. I  think plants have intelligence and senses and memory of course. They perhaps talk to each other more importantly they talk with moving creatures in their language. Long back when I was taught ethology - animal behavior I was asked a question. When do you think is the connection between flower and insects? They both were born at the same time! When I look at my flower garden, I am surprised by plants' ability to send messages all over the place to bees butterflies wasps ants and all creatures - saying I have what you want. How do plants know that their attract...

Though political parties trying to entice money flow to India, it is not happening to the extent they want it. Investor wishes return of investment. In fact they wish return of investment not in white but in black - unaccounted free without tax. Benefit for indians and India is employment and taxes on income from those employed. Successful business houses in India are them who understands this operation strategy. I am told 10 years of rule by Congress saw highest growth rate ever for India after independence. I do not doubt it. Why that slowed down really. Indians or India is still dishonest and corrupt! More so now than ever before. Demonetization did not recover a single rupee of black money. On the other hand black money whatever became white. How? Indians are genius and magician when it is corruption. Attraction for investor in India is its vast population. If they can sell one soap bar to each Indian even if manufactured in India, it is lot of business. USA is committed to ca...

we the users of computer know what to expect about computers we use for all purposes that our intellect is capable of like subservient dog it watches us and the purposes of uses it is meant for i watch me for the purpose i may still useful and how inclined i am i am not getting the remote jobs i am looking for I am looking for remote assignments some years back chhorda turned down assignments saying he is not physically fit i have similar kind of words from my creator - certified not fit for travel yet i give interviews for assignment remote or travel. local assignments are not suitable at all. columbus jobs are does not need completion and do not need people who is more inclined to purpose of doing that is more than salary or clerkship. I have an interview that i am postponing since it is more than 6 hours travel. i have finished one interview with perhaps another meeting require traveling 2 hours. the assignment need weekly 9 hours travel. question is if i am capable o...

As a country USA, it is home for 50 bad people who are harming 50 good people, who would not harm knowingly. We assume that US laws defends good people from bad who attempts to harm. President presides 100 without discrimination. He condones bad not always but encourages them to prosper. President supports his family and business even if they are harming US in global context or even in internal context. Not necessarily rich exploiting poor, racial exploitation and bias. Within the perimeter of presidential bias as understood by law, we cannot complain. It is fortunate that we have now over one year have been investigating president as to what he is permitted before and after president. I am not predicting his impeachment or giving up his position. This does not matter. But we are coming to see public dialogue about his conduct. We shall soon see public preferences and expectations from president. Is President in bad company or ius President is bad company...

a class of people known as physicists conjectures from ancient prejudices and literature and formulate theories - we call them with intellect for their bold theories and spend money in search of proofs in our daily life or in the universe out there when ancient literature talked about absolute some went on to hypothesize relative they are still searching for black matter and theorizing if there is time within black hole they imagined I since have seen my creator i would not wish a proof to turn others into believer instead I ask some questions and do not theorize or take proof, photograph, of its absence at present can i be unstable? do I have that much power to lift a speck and place it elsewhere? can any in the continuum of time and space do without it being done or revealed? what is the proof of creator? what is matter? what is the truth? what is absolute? can universe be unstable even for a moment? Is NOT creator the unlimited negation of all perceptions and what...

I am like a driver. frankly i cannot leave the car and its owner. I only follow owners wish. I do not even have the responsibility to drive safely. There is no road and no people or object to avoid. I am driving on simulator. car is my azera and road is interstate freeway 90. I set objective to make a travel from SF to Boston in 3 days..... options are all open always still I make objectives. I am a monkey who cannot sit still but always missing so many things to do or achieve. as a child i innovated many games. One of them tree climbing and descending. it was very involving game. i used to play with other kids and also alone simulating absent kids around me. It is impossible to believe that i am being manipulated to be thinking acting and achieving while all is absent always. including me. this need a hypothesis but if i hypothesize i am not making error. the conjecture is - there is a master and i am entirely deluded - there is no audience really and i have nothing to give o...

I was truly at a loss with my grief when I cannot cure my loss i ask forbearance but from whom? My creator but what can I promise him in return ~ i have nothing to offer I pray, take me instead I am past my time but I do not need me but please ensure longevity of the flower I love most ~ i do not like ever to hear anything bad for her ~ i pray please return her to me as long as I am live I promise I shall not pray for anyone or anything again in my life please ensure health and happiness in exchange of my all my pride my sense It is possible and it must be possible ~ I give her my life and all Babar did it for Humayun ~ I no longer like ever to hear bad about her from anyone living I cannot believe and i have known her all my life ~ she asks for nothing but gives so much of love why she cannot be given whatever she needs  - foods and drinks for taste and environment of love and not criticism - I condone whoever is making her suffer - please please please take my lif...

Since all is me and my belief - words and sounds I emit is very important to me in my undoing of me and must be acted out accurately same as always until I am completely undone the strangle that suffocates me if anyone out there reading me shall not understand what i am talking about and i do not explain any further unless i make assumption i do not think say sense or do I am like bat send radar messages and wait and receive and analyze what is out there reflected my radar emission it may be very large object but my analysis showed it is devourable and small i try to devour the same instead get eaten up end of story in order to prolong the story but what i am attempting is undoing my compulsion or convictions with words and sounds and their meaning as understood by me it is 100% incorrect however I would like to believe it is 100% correct since there is none out there to contradict me unless I do! I have been living dual life of male and female all my life and both...

There are far too many crises to attend to. Although I casually go through my Economist i lose interest after 1000 words. The USA hypomania world over is not sustainable. There are far too many alternatives to belong to be within the fence that protects US interest. One simple action that would ruin US economy is to cut down use of internet toys that would stop 5 trillion drug addiction to 5 billion but would US run for coffin with stable residence 6 feet under the earth. Turkey showing the way. As soon as they hit upon it Lira stabilizes! Wall street nose dives! I too is effected. I have for sometime gone away from individual choice of investment to safe investment. Stable income. I of course would like to guide my investor to choice away from opium drug and internet that prosper on addiction. I have talked about cloud. Aws making phenomenal profits and supporting core business of Amazon. However cloud is not really making profits for industry that are attempting to ...

if there is one thing not joke but forever truth including this very moment ~ this is it ~ I am the one and only creator of me my world my rules. I make my rules and I am the one breaks it. I do all these without parting my lips, raising my finger, ruffling a single hair, batting eyelid - in silence without any witness. I am beyond any kind evaluation or knowing. there is none and nothing besides me full stop I am the master bluffer however I am bluffing myself every moment of my life - in an empty space i am making up drama that never took place with none present. It is my play acting only. I am all the actors actresses and I am audience. I am the writer i am the director i am the composer i am the publisher .... I am and I am always - it is my make beliefs  My hoax at my expense joke illusion false non-material cannot exist without certainty truth ever present or indestructible material there is one, if that is the only one to know unmistakably the magician - the cr...

we have preserved old in a form that persisted even today for many thousand years - nearly 5000 or more. I am talking about Puranas - vedas upanishad ramayana mahabharata etc. They were written in language of extreme erudition and not spoken natural language. They do not survive for long and very local. None of the ancient relics exist today. We imagine names with places but nothing to prove. We only how they lived in ordinary sense. Those extreme erudites wrote in language that would survive for 5000 years progressively expanding in vocabulary written manually but spread locally in natural language that roamed in all locality played out as drama among living who had nothing to do with read or write. How strange that even after 5000 long years they have survived unchanged even without a stroke dropped but being manually rewritten and available throughout Indian subcontinent. They are written as Slokas - two line verse in one leaflet surface with durable ink. Leaflet is called bhujya...

I must get it without it I cannot live. Somebody spoke my mind. And I want all everyone desire - I do not care how. Money comfort women honor position - all unlimited. My position is not uncompromisable. I am hungry and my reason for my birth and this tenure of life. I have my appetite for numbers. Infinite is my goal and highest among human all time. My aim is the top of the honor roll in the sky for all time as long as there is sky.

I am told there is no organism in this planet more fortunate than human. with their 4 limbs and five fingers and over sized brain five or six senses they can predict plan and execute. only achievement they have not listed so far is conquering their death, senility, disease, discomfort. I have been watching a serial of human endurance. They travel into unknown future without destination for new land for many thousand miles in boats and sails all hand constructed knowing fully well they shall never return. They predicted their success even if that ends with inevitable failure. Human as if has indefinite time to live but no time to waste with known. There are lands in the making - tsunami volcanic eruptions are causes. Organisms thrown into the land by typhoons and survive. Human come here on their own in search of unknown. The motivation is no longer riches. will human colonize outside planet earth. the senses that we are equipped with is it sufficient. can we create earth lik...

I do not like cloud computing. It is again as usual money making technology promising a lot but achieving nothing. We have today everyone owning a smartphone. As is all these shall be used to achieve some work otherwise needed to be performed by computer at home or otherwise. I for example spend lot of time on my computer for developing software or ideas. For developing software I do not use cloud. It is extremely inconvenient. I have to spend quite a few minutes for any kind of interaction even testing. Further it is so microscopic achievement. Without any complete view of what is required. Several months back I examined in detail GDPR software developed with 300 man years efforts by IBM. They even hoped to sell it many companies operating in EU. In a nutshell the product is unusable for any company if their clientbase exceeds 10000. Inorder to use it - it shall need 10000 man hours. It is so costly. For IBM - they have already had spent 300 man years and they were nowhere ...

Due to my relentless intellectual curiosity about me I have been competely wiped out from the face of the world under normal temperature and pressure. I cannot make a retreat or come back even when temperature and pressure is any but normal. The world is shining new. World is Without  memory. Unpredictable

I have written enough on my privacy concern. I am more or less static. I use internet from my home about 95% time. I use handful of browsers. What I do has become the business gor internet toy making companies. They sell my information and irritatingly so. I have limited screen space that is occupied with what I did in the internet. Perhaps there are some security with my financial information but I am pessimistic now. I have been proposing two application being protected gor misuse. Browser and search engine. By law. As fundamental tenets of individual privacy. My data on usage on this application must not be even revealed in court.. they must be not a sokale to none and no devices. They can ot be associated with me in stretch of imagination.

I am have not. I am protected as have not by no communistic doctrine. I am protected by the creator of my world.  For the sake of protecting my world. I do not have to talk or plead my an annihilation i do not have to do. I may think whatever I please or plain sleep off. I have not to acquire any armor to prevent most poisonous annihilatory weapons deployed upon me. I weapon is i do not have to know power of anyone all or some. After total destruction of universe. I am still there. I am the eyewitness. I have no footprint. I cannot be threatened. I am rootless.

After my longing expression to be read, I have to remind my self of my extent of knowledge. I am incapable of learning or knowing no matter how long i live or reborn again and again in the pursuit of knowledge. Such endeavours are useless and futile.  No matter how I deceive myself and hide them despite the rule of universal eraser. It may be hidden in DNA and I retrieve them. I simply incapable of learning. I know nothing, rather I do not know. My world is thoroughly housed in a shell of nothing. This nothing is truly devoid of anything is human sensible, human recordable and human derivable or discoverable by anyform of logic ~ current past or future. If I am writing this now, in the hope that I shall remember this(knowledge) in some future time. The attempt is again futile. Unless the shell of nothing decides to do so whimsically. I simply cannot comprehend or have no knowledge of that. I am thoroughly limited. There is one and only one escape route from my limi...

I am astonished of my own foolishness. I have been told with many trillion examples that it is impossible to live indefinitely but I believe in the same. Despite my failing health and wealth and many inabilities I plan for million years hence! There is no living example of  any organism surviving a mere 1000 years with countless dead and fossils - we spend our lives looking for cure for cancer. We simply cannot accept our limit. Hydro carbon nitrogen structures cannot survive nothing ~ Sunya or Akasha! That is present always. Only eternals.

I am public since 2006 perhaps. I have been publicly thinking ever since 1975 perhaps. I have been brought to my notice by many of my listeners. Some found me crazy and associated me with many crazy and outrageous ideas. Many i pursued for same months but lost interest. Some notions were human race was externally guided. Those who read me perhaps none, i do not look for readership or pursuing some ideas of anybody's interest. I soon lose my stream. I have been critique of me for 5 decades. I find it worthless an aim to supercede anyone. I am happy getting pass marks unless I exceed all expectation and given 100 out of 100. Then too it is not my aim. I realized early in the game that marks like money is addictive. I did not like to excel at all. I am criticising all form of human knowledge except when it is new or first time. Thereafter it is counter productive. I am have very derogatory opinion about Stephen Hawkins Einstein Darwin etc. While I have supreme honors for Valmiki...

Some thoughts of mine brilliant. I can't act out some of my brilliant thoughts. I even do not pursue further exploration of such thoughts. I know the entire network of such thoughts. I know future of such thoughts. I am unaware of senses. Only escape is sleep if I can invoke! I have also seen, seeing i cannot stop, the motivation of thought - my desire to talk to people or just remain in touch or engaged. Every moment created is for people. I still love working. In very thoughtful manner i love creation. I love this spirited engagement. The other day I almost looked at a new branch of logic that is not set theoretic or number based. Neither deductive nor inductive or negation of hypothesis by construction of example. All these techniques presumes a set of truth. That may be our adoption of numbers or counting cardinality and their ordinality. I am not seeking attention. I truly like to belong to a set where I am alone and cannot be tagged with anything that is his...

I have spent two third of my life optimizing my benefits than earning gold for my for comfortable living Is it wise of me? How could i be indifferent to my health wealth ease of living? what have I gained from 50 years of devoted work in the pursuit of truth? I know of course that NOW is the best time for me and it shall be so as long as I live or given another moment to live\ all my moments are free and I do not have to do do i have this faith? in case I am not convinced I have to live this moment without doing and wait till it arrives in a platter with my name written on it unmistakably I am protected by my lord with divine protection without any better