joke

if there is one thing not joke but forever truth including this very moment ~ this is it ~

I am the one and only creator of me my world my rules. I make my rules and I am the one breaks it. I do all these without parting my lips, raising my finger, ruffling a single hair, batting eyelid - in silence without any witness. I am beyond any kind evaluation or knowing. there is none and nothing besides me full stop

I am the master bluffer however I am bluffing myself every moment of my life - in an empty space i am making up drama that never took place with none present. It is my play acting only. I am all the actors actresses and I am audience. I am the writer i am the director i am the composer i am the publisher .... I am and I am always - it is my make beliefs 

My hoax at my expense

joke illusion false non-material cannot exist without certainty truth ever present or indestructible material
there is one, if that is the only one to know unmistakably the magician - the creator of hoax that seems to exist over many thousand years as far history goes

absence of non-material world is certainty and ever present - I sail into sleep dream awake effortlessly with deft wind created by my creator into creation

this absence is permanent not birth or death we know

it is first hand knowledge of unknown rather unknowable that I create knowledge and transient time where it is valid

this absence is empty - devoid of knowledge and kernel of all knowledge ~ meaning of all words in a dictionary - the end and beginning pages are ABSENT and that makes the dictionary complete

in the presence of this constant or absolute absence ~ it is relief. I cannot eat drink breath possess any for survival~~ if i am fond of counting and new - I shall have many births and deaths many disease many senile old age poverty disabilities of all kinds unlimited

however in all time and events - the miracle man the magician shall recover me to its abode - the only material home devoid of knowledge!

When there is none in any foreseeable future, what to show and what to leave behind what to expect? What is truth to tell? All my attempts are my foolishness and knowingly I am deceiving myself but how long?

My hunger stops me being hungry. I stop breathing when I am breathless. I stop drinking when I am out of water.... In empty space i only have me and without need!

Core of my world is an empty space sunya 

The crowd is my fertile falsehood  - my imagination in empty space - my game with my imagined non-self with self ~ feeling good till I conclude enough is enough

empty space is the one and only truth. The kernel. all is true as is - my belief that has no option otherwise

Knowing in empty space is another self deceiving joke - knowing not knowing in empty space is however TRUTH as far as knowledge goes

the most thrilling game of sex or coupling is a hoax certainly ends up at nothing or separation - no wonder all love marriages ends up in separation or no love

it is always strain to keep playing the same game again and again

The only manner i may speak truth by my silence

I am very sensitive about nakedness ~ my knowledge is very superficial ~ my ignorance is permanent

What do I do when I am a joker? I bluff me all the time in so many new ways and I cannot stop!

I let myself bluff since I cannot stop. This is the only way. I stop me from participating in the bluff however much I am tempted.

I do not play the game of love and engagement; it does not matter how long is the game; it is never TRUE....... I said that, you said this. Then I said ... You meant .... You did ...and then I did....