I pray

I was truly at a loss with my grief

when I cannot cure my loss i ask forbearance but from whom?

My creator but what can I promise him in return ~ i have nothing to offer

I pray, take me instead I am past my time but I do not need me but please ensure longevity of the flower I love most ~ i do not like ever to hear anything bad for her ~ i pray please return her to me as long as I am live

I promise I shall not pray for anyone or anything again in my life

please ensure health and happiness in exchange of my all my pride my sense
It is possible and it must be possible ~ I give her my life and all Babar did it for Humayun ~ I no longer like ever to hear bad about her from anyone living

I cannot believe and i have known her all my life ~ she asks for nothing but gives so much of love why she cannot be given whatever she needs  - foods and drinks for taste and environment of love and not criticism - I condone whoever is making her suffer -

please please please take my life but keep her healthy happy and as beautiful as ever let me not hear again any self satisfying glee from sufferings of her

 please restore my faith in you my father - i don't know what must be done - i only know you can do it - i offer you me and my all for her total wellbeing  - i promise you it is my last prayer and i keep my promise and i have not failed anyone in my life - i am truthful honest and  not a bluffer

 I give up all my safety to ensure total safety for her ~ knowingly i undergo all losses in silence with my promise never to resist and i shall never ask again or pray again

 I trust or expect my creator to do the best for my world, in particular for her, with no consideration for me.

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