it is time

with 500 words vocabulary i have read and written about me many million sentences

they are repetitive

reading me stopped when i reached the slate or page or space nothing in it and i could write nothing

all my writings so far were false account of me

I do not exist

nothing to reveal any further all my written communications have become meaningless and false promotion where there is not another being or thing

for a while I have been engaged in withdrawing my writings

i may have to stop

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