Future

it is one bird with many names or appearances

many headed demon

health wealth love fear anondo

I must kill all of them at once to kill my future

under no circumstances I can ensure another moment

then only I have comfort and security and feelings of abundance of

this very moment

I have to do without future now

I cannot look back

I cannot look forward

this moment is complete and sufficient


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