adulthood

I am avid reader of ramayana and mahabharata ever since I learned to listen to stories.

my favorites changed over time

Once upon a time it was Karna the deprived

then as i grew up it was yudhisthira

as an adult i analyzed his character what made him the only person defeat death and climb heaven all by himself with hard work

what is that hard work that resulted him to climb the destination - Heaven

what set him apart - i secretly had the ambition to climb to heaven all by myself

i devoted myself to this goal 44 years at least

time to my from my childhood I made many promises - one of the is honesty

today i avoid most when their dishonesty is exposed

i realized today that I have a trait that i have not seen in anybody except in Yudhisthir

I am a born gambler - I have nothing but I do not stop from gambling everything I have - body health wealth relations whatever

furthermore I stop at nothing - every moment I gamble my life wealth health relations wisdom whatever

did i know illusion? did i know illusion is not real - never?

did i know i am the magician the master? is it not my challenge to my master if any?

destroy me if you can! I know the truth ~ there is no truth!!

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